Then you know how much it sucks to explain that to people... I have no problem feeling bad about other people, but when it's me -- [ She stops her little fork fighting, gripping onto it tightly. ] It just makes me want to disappear.
[ WHY IS THAT SO PUBLIC!!! WHY DOES HER DAD KNOW!!! ]
Huh? [ She blinks, feigning offense in her voice: ] Why not? When I seriously care about a person then I put my all into it! Or, at least, I'd like to...
Did they wipe your memory or something? There’s people out there that have been totally brainwashed and just become a shell of who they were, at least that’s what I’ve been told.
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Then you know how much it sucks to explain that to people... I have no problem feeling bad about other people, but when it's me -- [ She stops her little fork fighting, gripping onto it tightly. ] It just makes me want to disappear.
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[ So, yeah. We get it. Good that she stops trying to steal his food. He can eat with... Another utensil. ]
Do you want to disappear now?
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Well...
No one here really knows who I am or what I've been through, so I guess not?
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[ Cause technically he knows what she's been through, if only a bit. ]
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[ She sighs. ]
No one here looks at me and thinks "her purpose is to hurt people".
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[ what, with what had happened? Anyway, ]
It doesn’t sound like a purpose you chose for yourself.
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What do you think happens to kids like me? They don't save us.
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[ Hm. ]
In that case, you would need to save yourself unless you are waiting for someone.
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[ ... ]
There's someone... who I'm trying to take with me. But I dunno if it'll mean anything, since they're pretty much tied down to this girl.
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Despite your friendliness, I never took you for someone to become that attached to one person. At least enough to consider that.
[ Reze always seems… Whimsical and free-spirited despite circumstances. ]
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Huh? [ She blinks, feigning offense in her voice: ] Why not? When I seriously care about a person then I put my all into it! Or, at least, I'd like to...
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Did you ever had opportunity to do that before?
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[ She pauses. ]
You haven’t really spoken about your past at all. If you want anymore out of me you gotta tell me something.
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[ Which is why he said he didn't have much of a childhood in the first place. ]
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But that doesn’t make me not who I am.
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[ ELABORATE?? ]
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My beginning starts with me already at twenty-eight.
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Like, you're handsome and brooding and annoying? All at once? That's a protagonist for you.
[ Anyway. ]
I hope your story has a good ending, at least.
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I’m no longer a character. I’m writing my own ending.
[ Which means… No. ending is bad. ]
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[ Big smiles. ]
It probably doesn't mean much, but I'm glad that you've got control of your life. Now I really hope that you live happily.
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Steal him away from that girl.
[ I can't believe we are here. ]
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