MIKAZUKI MUNECHIKA, USELESS GRANDPAPI

[malewife]

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[unsaid]

[ . . . . well. mikazuki smiles a little at the question.]

I find happiness no matter where I am.

[but the overarching heartache doesn't really fade.]

... but it does not change the scars that you and I might carry.

[and it is only because he hears the bitterness in yoo joonghyuk's voice that he might even be willing to admit that much]

[malewife]

[ To be honest, he's envious of anyone who is happy with where they are... Or they have everything they need and care for. ]

Then in ways we are different.

[ i will never be satisfied from hamilton ]

[unsaid]

[mikazuki doesn't necessarily have everything - and while he is able to feel these pockets of happiness, it's never really enough to dispel the sadness he feels

but he did say it a certain way, knowing that it's likely misleading]

Is it difficult for your heart to find peace?

[malewife]

[ Still, sometimes you are envious of people's peace of mind. ]

... Living through the apocalypse multiple times makes it difficult.

[ So, yes. ]

[unsaid]

[he nods in understanding - he's been there too, albeit he will assume the direct cause is different]

I worry after you, my friend.

To live as long as we have takes it own toll.

[given that yjh (and perhaps kdj) are the only individuals here that jiji really considers as possibly older than him]

[malewife]

[ me sweating about dokja's age ]

... What helps it to take on a certain mentality and stick with it. It is how Constellations who also live just as long survive their boredom.

[ ... His shoulders sink. ]

I don't plan to give up.

[unsaid]

[he smiles faintly at that]

No, I did not think you would... Do you wish to live as long as they do? Your Constellations.

Or perhaps - even longer still, to see the world that can come after them?

[malewife]

I have already seen the world with a starless sky, but I don't want to live forever.

[ He thinks immortality is overrated? What's the point of living long if you watch people die and you get to suffer longer. ]

[unsaid]

[honestly?

kind of relatable but he doesn't quite say it,]

... then what is it that would bring you satisfaction, my friend?

[malewife]

[ stop being old ]

To live a normal life with those I care for. Nothing extravagant.

[ It's simple, but ambitious in its own way. ]