I know I am. But... I have seen what taking someone's life can do to her. And she will resent whoever kills me. I do not want her living her life with that regret, even if she resents me for it.
Though it would be an unkind thing to ask of you, too.
[ he hasn't lived for anything besides revenge and resentment in a long time. being alive for other people has very recently entered the picture, but it's still a tenuous thing. ]
But part of me hopes that I will not come back. ...I still do not know how you have suffered so many lifetimes, Yoo Joonghyuk. [ he's already tired, and it shows on his face. ]
[ He mulls over the last sentence, but doesn’t answer it. ]
… I won’t trust your words because I believe you are stronger than that.
[ Because Joonghyuk learned to believe in the stories people create… Even if he isn’t noble, if he can’t care for too many people, he believes in Dimitri who does. No matter how dark and dirty their hearts actually are, Joonghyuk believes in the good Dimitri has or the good Dimitri wants to protect and foster in others.
And that good should not die, not like this. He won’t accept it. ]
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i read on the vote something about volunteers being allowed if culprit also accepts for ic choice but idk how it works ]
... You are robbing her of that peace—to have some control over how she will lose you.
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he smiles at that, though it's slanted and sad. ]
I know I am. But... I have seen what taking someone's life can do to her. And she will resent whoever kills me. I do not want her living her life with that regret, even if she resents me for it.
Though it would be an unkind thing to ask of you, too.
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[ It's also familiar. He closes his eyes, eyebrows knitting in frustration. ]
You are nothing like him and yet you are here, asking me to raise my blade. [ All of this is too familiar. ] You will return.
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[ he hasn't lived for anything besides revenge and resentment in a long time. being alive for other people has very recently entered the picture, but it's still a tenuous thing. ]
But part of me hopes that I will not come back. ...I still do not know how you have suffered so many lifetimes, Yoo Joonghyuk. [ he's already tired, and it shows on his face. ]
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… I won’t trust your words because I believe you are stronger than that.
[ Because Joonghyuk learned to believe in the stories people create… Even if he isn’t noble, if he can’t care for too many people, he believes in Dimitri who does. No matter how dark and dirty their hearts actually are, Joonghyuk believes in the good Dimitri has or the good Dimitri wants to protect and foster in others.
And that good should not die, not like this. He won’t accept it. ]