[ So it screwed up his sense of fantasy and reality. It would have been so much easier if they were fighting each other.
He knows Dokja would never kill Mia, would never pitch to sacrifice her.
It made it so much harder to choose. ]
I’ve seen my sister die many times before, so it wasn’t unfamiliar to me. I’ve also been able to save her twice—she would grow up to be happy. [ … ] Kim Dokja. He hasn’t been saved once.
He hasn’t been happy before, but he created a world for me… Where I didn’t need to sacrifice anyone.
[ So in the end, he chose the world. Closing his eyes tightly, he repeats this more to himself than anything. Despite all these words, it’s obvious that he’s… Lost? Hurt? Angry. To have failed again. ]
I trust that Mia will be safe. I have to believe she is.
[Hm. He does not like these things on Joonghyuk anymore than he'd like these very real, vulnerable things on Bruce. And maybe it's because they always seem so... unaffected, detached enough to be logical and put together even if they aren't.
And knowing they aren't means not a single person is invincible, meaning he has no one stable enough to use as some kind of role model. Is he using Bruce and Joonghyuk as role models? NO.
Anyhow, it's apparent he doesn't judge Joonghyuk for the choice.]
She is. But we're running out of time to figure out how to turn things on its head to make sure it stays that way.
[ Everyone is flawed, Jason. Also, Bruce is rich so maybe that’s something? It’s an uncomfortable place to be when Joonghyuk is so used to solitude and only his misery keeping him company, at least for another moment of silence. Whatever vulnerability is gone, tossed into the fire of rage. ]
I’m ready to run my sword through the Nightman.
[ Is said with more venom than usual, with more bite and heart. It almost sounds blinded, but he calms himself down. ]
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[ So it screwed up his sense of fantasy and reality. It would have been so much easier if they were fighting each other.
He knows Dokja would never kill Mia, would never pitch to sacrifice her.
It made it so much harder to choose. ]
I’ve seen my sister die many times before, so it wasn’t unfamiliar to me. I’ve also been able to save her twice—she would grow up to be happy. [ … ] Kim Dokja. He hasn’t been saved once.
He hasn’t been happy before, but he created a world for me… Where I didn’t need to sacrifice anyone.
[ So in the end, he chose the world. Closing his eyes tightly, he repeats this more to himself than anything. Despite all these words, it’s obvious that he’s… Lost? Hurt? Angry. To have failed again. ]
I trust that Mia will be safe. I have to believe she is.
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And knowing they aren't means not a single person is invincible, meaning he has no one stable enough to use as some kind of role model. Is he using Bruce and Joonghyuk as role models? NO.
Anyhow, it's apparent he doesn't judge Joonghyuk for the choice.]
She is. But we're running out of time to figure out how to turn things on its head to make sure it stays that way.
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I’m ready to run my sword through the Nightman.
[ Is said with more venom than usual, with more bite and heart. It almost sounds blinded, but he calms himself down. ]
Lup Lastname showed you the tape?
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The last person to ever tell Joonghyuk this is too much anger is Jason, so he doesn’t. Sorry.]
I can get behind the Nightman stabbing. [He nods his head.] Yeah, she did.
What do you think?
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[ JOONGHYUK, THE LAST OF THE DOROHEDORO CYOA, FOCUSED ON THE HOLE
HOLE??? ]