i'm a 1997 girl (reze)

[malewife]

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[malewife]

Why lie about such inane and trivial matters?

[ Joonghyuk will have made his own food and it IS DELICIOUS LOOKING and the Aroma WAFTS, etc. ]

[quiz]

[ She shrugs her shoulders, looking at his food...

She reaches over with her fork. Share! ]

If I sound normal then no one asks me "what was your childhood like", "what did your room look like", or whatever. 'Cause who wants to hear oh, I didn't even see the sun until I was like ten years old! It's a mood killer.

[malewife]

[ He interjects with his own fork. No touche. ]

Is that true?

[quiz]

[ Fork fight. FORK FIGHT. ]

Mhm. [ She nods, looking at his food. ] I was a test subject for the USSR. You ever heard of the story they'd tell their kids? That there was an ammunition room that they kept and tortured children... I thought it was funny, that my life was being used to keep kids in check.

[malewife]

I've heard of similar stories about different countries doing similarly. Never have I met someone that could confirm it to be true.

[ Just seems like a weird thing to also lie about and make up? Who wants to have that kind of past? Though, he wouldn't put it past Reze to want to come off as special for attention. ]

I didn't have much of a childhood, either.

[quiz]

[ Damn, dude. ]

Then you know how much it sucks to explain that to people... I have no problem feeling bad about other people, but when it's me -- [ She stops her little fork fighting, gripping onto it tightly. ] It just makes me want to disappear.

[malewife]

It is difficult to explain because no one would understand.

[ So, yeah. We get it. Good that she stops trying to steal his food. He can eat with... Another utensil. ]

Do you want to disappear now?

[quiz]

[ She huffs, drawing her hand back. ]

Well...

No one here really knows who I am or what I've been through, so I guess not?

[malewife]

Not even after you told me?

[ Cause technically he knows what she's been through, if only a bit. ]

[quiz]

It's probably cause I don't have any responsibilities, either.

[ She sighs. ]

No one here looks at me and thinks "her purpose is to hurt people".

[malewife]

Instead, you could say everyone’s purpose here is to hurt each other.

[ what, with what had happened? Anyway, ]

It doesn’t sound like a purpose you chose for yourself.

[quiz]

And when do you think it'll end? Until there is one or once those watching us get bored?

What do you think happens to kids like me? They don't save us.

[malewife]

Who knows. You can see what your Watchers say. They might know more now than they did last week.

[ Hm. ]

In that case, you would need to save yourself unless you are waiting for someone.

[quiz]

Not really.

[ ... ]

There's someone... who I'm trying to take with me. But I dunno if it'll mean anything, since they're pretty much tied down to this girl.

[malewife]

[ ??? There is another boy besides Nine? ]

Despite your friendliness, I never took you for someone to become that attached to one person. At least enough to consider that.

[ Reze always seems… Whimsical and free-spirited despite circumstances. ]

[quiz]

[ WHY IS THAT SO PUBLIC!!! WHY DOES HER DAD KNOW!!! ]

Huh? [ She blinks, feigning offense in her voice: ] Why not? When I seriously care about a person then I put my all into it! Or, at least, I'd like to...

[malewife]

[ no, he doesn't know shit, to be honest. he only saw their interaction at trial. ]

Did you ever had opportunity to do that before?

[quiz]

I tried, but…

[ She pauses. ]

You haven’t really spoken about your past at all. If you want anymore out of me you gotta tell me something.

[malewife]

I don't have a past.

[ Which is why he said he didn't have much of a childhood in the first place. ]

[quiz]

Did they wipe your memory or something? There’s people out there that have been totally brainwashed and just become a shell of who they were, at least that’s what I’ve been told.

[malewife]

… No. It’s more that I was never written one.

But that doesn’t make me not who I am.

[quiz]

… Written?

[ ELABORATE?? ]

[malewife]

... I was once a fictional character. A protagonist in a webnovel.

My beginning starts with me already at twenty-eight.

[quiz]

You do have protagonist written all over you, to be honest...

Like, you're handsome and brooding and annoying? All at once? That's a protagonist for you.

[ Anyway. ]

I hope your story has a good ending, at least.

[malewife]

[ To be honest, Joonghyuk would probably not like reading about a protagonist like himself, but it’s fine. ]

I’m no longer a character. I’m writing my own ending.

[ Which means… No. ending is bad. ]