[ Stepping out of that memory was like coming out of a whirlwind; she's disheveled, a bit out of place, and even Grigory in his lynx form is curled around her feet in an attempt to feel settled back into place.
A minion.
I want to die.
I want to live. ]
Dokja is a very important person to you, isn't he?
... The Kim Dokja here is one that hasn't done what I said yet. You can say he's one in the past or I'm one from the future.
[ Can't believe he's the one here to clear up that their canon points are different. Whether she wants to ATTACK Dokja is not his business. also where is my memshare. ]
It is a place that can only be reached towards the ends of the Scenarios, which is a series of hellish trials that can span years. The door to that place is open only then.
[ For a moment she stops to look at her feet, suddenly feeling ten times smaller; a child. ]
I saw one of Power's memories, and I -- It was confusing, because I remember going to that place to meet Denji and... apparently, I never showed up. [ She smiles, practiced -- it's not the least bit genuine. ] But the last thing I remember is rushing to him. So I can only assume what happened.
[ Joonghyuk doesn't seem to mind it, but he remembers that she said she was waiting for a boy. She might be young and there might be many people she'll meet in the future if she lives? Or if she surfaces again? He isn't sure. The point is, there are many people across the universe.
Still, sometimes a special someone needs to be held close. ]
She had promised to protect Denji no matter what, and without thinking her feet had already helped her get to the alley just before the cafe. Just because he said that he would be there -- just because she had hoped he be there -- waiting for her so they could runaway together.
But does she deserve it?
After everything she's done, despite all of his reassurance, does she deserve a space beside him?
Power comes to mind, and while she'll never say it out loud it's clear as day that she's dependent on Denji. And while she selfishly wants to cling to him there's a piece of herself that she can't forgive; betraying his trust, hurting him, ever thinking of leaving without him. ]
I -- [ Reze is many things, and unfortunately one of them is being a very convincing liar. ] I wouldn't. No.
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A minion.
I want to die.
I want to live. ]
Dokja is a very important person to you, isn't he?
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He doesn't want to say, but it's obvious. ]
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You lived a really long life.
If I was in your position, I think I'd wanna die, too.
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[ He closes his eyes. ]
I'm alive.
[ So, yeah. ]
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Open your eyes, stupid, stop doing this protagonist behavior.
What are you gonna do now that you've got your own story? Gonna live with Dokja until the end? I think you guys make a good couple.
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... I have to get him back first.
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You lost a grown ass man in the store?
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You know what. He's mad at Dokja. ]
Kim Dokja sacrificed himself... And he's trapped in an unreachable place.
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And he has the gall to tell me that I can come home with him, ha.
Unreachable… elaborate on that.
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[ Can't believe he's the one here to clear up that their canon points are different. Whether she wants to ATTACK Dokja is not his business. also where is my memshare. ]
It is a place that can only be reached towards the ends of the Scenarios, which is a series of hellish trials that can span years. The door to that place is open only then.
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And you're in the process of doing that...
Well, I guess if he keeps his word and brings me with him I don't mind helping bringing him back.
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[ So, yeah, Joonghyuk never told him, but he feels like they both know. ]
Why would you do that for someone you've only known for a couple of weeks? That would be four years of hell at minimum.
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He said he'd give me a "home".
[ For a moment she stops to look at her feet, suddenly feeling ten times smaller; a child. ]
I saw one of Power's memories, and I -- It was confusing, because I remember going to that place to meet Denji and... apparently, I never showed up. [ She smiles, practiced -- it's not the least bit genuine. ] But the last thing I remember is rushing to him. So I can only assume what happened.
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Still, sometimes a special someone needs to be held close. ]
... If you could return home—safely, would you?
[ This is a resolve question. ]
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She had promised to protect Denji no matter what, and without thinking her feet had already helped her get to the alley just before the cafe. Just because he said that he would be there -- just because she had hoped he be there -- waiting for her so they could runaway together.
But does she deserve it?
After everything she's done, despite all of his reassurance, does she deserve a space beside him?
Power comes to mind, and while she'll never say it out loud it's clear as day that she's dependent on Denji. And while she selfishly wants to cling to him there's a piece of herself that she can't forgive; betraying his trust, hurting him, ever thinking of leaving without him. ]
I -- [ Reze is many things, and unfortunately one of them is being a very convincing liar. ] I wouldn't. No.
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[ He isn't going to push her to make a decision, but it's a question she has to consider. There's no judgment in his voice or his expression. ]
If you want to go home with Kim Dokja, then you can.
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[ ?????? ]
Do you love Dokja?
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What kind of question is that?
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You do love him.
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[ What the fuck does that even mean. ]
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I love him, too, you know?
And don't worry, it's strictly platonic. He's like my second dad -- you two are like my dads!
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[ YOU ARE LIKE
17.
he is so tired. ]
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