funny, he thinks. that in another place and time, yoo joonghyuk might have been one of the people that mikazuki reached out to - about his tragic role.]
Our companions and I—we would have not survived that world without him.
[ But there's no gratitude in his voice. It's... Bitter. Joonghyuk, in comparison, despite talking about people aside from himself, sounds like he is on his own. ]
[mikazuki doesn't necessarily have everything - and while he is able to feel these pockets of happiness, it's never really enough to dispel the sadness he feels
but he did say it a certain way, knowing that it's likely misleading]
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[ . . .
funny, he thinks. that in another place and time, yoo joonghyuk might have been one of the people that mikazuki reached out to - about his tragic role.]
I see now.
Why he is your world.
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[ But there's no gratitude in his voice. It's... Bitter. Joonghyuk, in comparison, despite talking about people aside from himself, sounds like he is on his own. ]
Are you happier where you are?
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I find happiness no matter where I am.
[but the overarching heartache doesn't really fade.]
... but it does not change the scars that you and I might carry.
[and it is only because he hears the bitterness in yoo joonghyuk's voice that he might even be willing to admit that much]
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Then in ways we are different.
[ i will never be satisfied from hamilton ]
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but he did say it a certain way, knowing that it's likely misleading]
Is it difficult for your heart to find peace?
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... Living through the apocalypse multiple times makes it difficult.
[ So, yes. ]
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I worry after you, my friend.
To live as long as we have takes it own toll.
[given that yjh (and perhaps kdj) are the only individuals here that jiji really considers as possibly older than him]
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... What helps it to take on a certain mentality and stick with it. It is how Constellations who also live just as long survive their boredom.
[ ... His shoulders sink. ]
I don't plan to give up.
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No, I did not think you would... Do you wish to live as long as they do? Your Constellations.
Or perhaps - even longer still, to see the world that can come after them?
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[ He thinks immortality is overrated? What's the point of living long if you watch people die and you get to suffer longer. ]
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kind of relatable but he doesn't quite say it,]
... then what is it that would bring you satisfaction, my friend?
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To live a normal life with those I care for. Nothing extravagant.
[ It's simple, but ambitious in its own way. ]